Being present…

When life becomes rapid, like a river, where moments pass not lived or at times not remembered. What do you do?

May be it’s part of motherhood and may be even agešŸ˜Š. Nowadays my memory is like a a sieve where some just filter through and some remain.

As a child I had a photographic memory of individual pages of my favorite books. This continued in my teens. Then in adulthood it changed, but my mind still captured and retained pretty much most information and life experiences, both useful and useless.

At times in life not remembering is not a bad thing. I have realised my mind, as if programmed innately, holds only snippets of the past, painful incidents. I am glad for it! think about it.. ..why would you want relive such incidents in detail.

Like many of you I feel time is flying too fast and I remember reading some where that the earth is rotation on its axis has fastened. No wonder the days roll over so rapidly that I can’t believe we are already reaching mid 2018. I still remember NYE 2017 like it was yesterday. So how to slow down and at the same time not let life happen without me?

I want to stop and smell the roses. I want memories ingrained with details of colours, smells and textures. Remember the feeling of the grass blades on my bare feet. And remember moments where my taste buds danced because I ate something wonderful for the first time. I want to be drawn into a cafe because of the smell of freshly brewed coffee and sit down,Ā  consume it as I watched people walk past. I want these experiences regularly and not care of the life going past or worry of the ‘to do list growing’. Life is fast pace and we are on the move constantly to keep up with life.Ā  Those of you who are parents will understand this more . We are driven by needs and wants of our children.

Mostly on holidays or rare weekends, when we are not tied to routine or chores that cannot be ignored, I feelĀ  like I am present soaking life as it happens .

I know the answers, be more present and minimise the activities to the necessary and the enjoyable and meaningful.

But it’s hard being present when your head is trying to keep up with multitude aspects of day to day life and when I am present like I have been lately at work I forget, my personal life. I forget to message my husband,Ā  somsomething I promised or leaveĀ  my phone unchecked and only see missed calls or messages from my family and friendsĀ  at the end of the day.

So basically I have lost the ability to multi task. Some say it’s good for your mind and increases the ability to be more present. But I am also playing catch up in different aspects in my life. So something always gives…..

But in the end I guess its about making an evaluation of whether you are ok, with what you miss out on or sacrifice to smell the roses…

Sometimes it’s not caring about the world which is centered on doing and achieving. But it’s about being present and absorbing the experience of being alive …

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